My So Called Life

Today I woke up excited about what the day would bring. Logan was going to work with daddy for the day. I was only going to work until 1:30 pm because we had family pictures scheduled. I took off early to make sure that everyone was showered and clothes were ironed. A friend of mine from high school was going to meet us at the park for Logan's 3 year pictures and family pictures. I have only kept up with her from facebook or running into her in town. When we got there she had the same wonderful smile that I remember. One of those smiles that makes your day better. Logan was a little shy but he warmed up quickly. She was very patient with him and since I was unsure how the afternoon would go that was reassuring to me. He was quit the little ham! I was so proud of my little boy. He listened to her and did what she asked with little fight. We ended the evening with taking Logan to the park to ride his new bike. I loved watching him ride like a big boy . Where has the time gone? It feels like yesterday that we were bringing him home from the hospital. Only a couple more months and we will be a family of 4.

I can't wait to see the pictures!

I had another doctor's appointment Tuesday and no change. My placenta is still in the same place and I am still in the same pain. I gained 3 lbs which is not bad at all considering I have only gained 1.5 lb in 20 weeks. I go back in 2 weeks for an ultrasound and I pray that it has moved. Dr. C said because the placenta is on my cervix my pelvic bones are spreading early and that is why I am in so much pain. I keep telling myself everything is fine but the more time that passes I worry! This week Jason felt the baby move for the first time. It is exciting to watch his face and Logan's when they feel him kick. Seems like this baby is a nighttime baby like Logan was. Only really active at night.

I brought home a list of names only for my husband to say NO!!! Still searching for that perfect fit...........

Have you ever had one of those weeks that you just want to start over. I knew Monday morning when I got out of bed that it would be a bad day but I was hopeful that the week would turn out better. Well here it is Thursday and still no end in sight. I think some of it might be that I am hormonal, worried about my placenta and the baby but really I think something has to give.

This week I took Logan for a echo because Dr. Sean still can hear a heart murmur and thought it best to check things out. Well that was two days ago and still no phone call. When it comes to my son I really don't deal with things well. I want him to be happy and healthy. When I scheduled his 3 year check up I did not think I would be walking out with a list of things to follow up. Really can one child get 2 referrals, an echo and a wart removed all in one visit. SIGH!!!! Maybe I just need to take a deep breath and find my happy place.

I am now 21 weeks along and starting to get the wow you look bigger comment. Just gotta love those people that make a pregnant one feel fat. I go back to the Doctor Tuesday to see if anything has changed and then again in 2 weeks. I am having a lot of pain and pressure but the nurse assures me that everything is normal.

For now I am going to finish my lunch.......