My So Called Life

I just received my first order from www.alice.com thanks to Tina I am sold on ordering from them. The items were just as described and everything was packaged nicely. Not only did I not have to go to the store to shop but the site found coupons for me.

Items purchased:
2 Jumbo packages of Luvs Diapers
2 rolls Paper Towels
2 boxes Zip Lock Bags
1 Crest Tooth Paste

Coupons $2.75 savings

Total: $21.38 Free Shipping

The diapers were a great deal $5.78 for a jumbo pack of Luvs. I didn't have to get dressed or get the boys ready to go to Rolla. I purchased just the items I needed nothing more. The items are shipped UPS. After the order has shipped they send an email with your tracking number. I am interested to see how well this site will work for me. Anything to help my monthly budget and avoid walmart with an infant and a 3 year old.

Logan is officially out of pull ups! YAY....... I decided after wasting 2 packs of pull ups and no accidents over the last 2 months we would not buy anymore. I bought a plastic mattress cover just in case but no accidents yet. It has been almost 2 1/2 weeks in big boy underwear for bedtime. I believe this is a huge accomplishment for Logan. He is only 3 1/2 and we have not had a accident over night in month's. I can't remember the last time he wet his pull up. He even gets up at night to use the bathroom. I will hear the toilet flush at like 3 am and he goes right back to bed.

I was worried about him having regression with the baby but I think it has been the opposite. He wants to be the big boy in our home. He corrects anyone that calls him a baby now. I think my little sweet baby boy is growing up!

Are you getting your kids vaccinate for H1N1?

Have you got the vaccine?

Do you plan to get the vaccine?


So many opinions so little research! I did get the vaccine yesterday from the OB office. I got it beacuse I work on campus and I would hate to bring something home to my children. I didn't have any side effects and I am fine. I now have to decide with Lucas at home whether or not to vaccinate Logan. First the doctors say no and now they say yes.

Let me know your thoughts!

Life as a family of Four has taken some adjusting but it has all been worth it. Before Lucas was born I feared having enough love, time or patience for two children. I have had many people tell me that you will be fine but the unknown is always scary. I worried about myself, Logan and Jason adjusting. I worried about how I would parent two children. I feared the delivery because Logan's delivery was a horrible experience for me. All of the unknowns kept me awake some nights to tell you the truth. Preparing for the second child is a different experience then the first in my opinion. I would like to think I am more practical this time around. I think that after having the first baby you realize what is a necessity and what is a want.


The first couple of weeks home was really rough. Logan struggled sharing time with mommy and daddy. He did not understand why Lucas could not play. Jason and I tried to involve Logan in feedings and changing the baby. We wanted him to feel like a big brother. I have to admit there were times that I would sit and cry because Logan just didn't understand. Breastfeeding Lucas brought an entire different challenge to balancing my time with the boys. I feel like Logan did not get the attention he needed from me until at least 4 weeks after Lucas was born.


Leaving the house with the boys is very challenging. I feel like by the time I get everyone dressed, feed and changed I am exhausted. I takes me at least 30-45 mintues to prepare for an outgoing with them. It is amazing how easy it was to pick up and go before. I was spoiled with no diaper bag and car seat to tote around. I was down to a change of clothes, snacks and drink. I will say it has been a huge change for me.


Jason and I have not had much time together lately. I feel like we see each other in passing. We are in much need of a date night but I am not sure I am ready to leave Lucas yet. He has taken a bottle several times from Logan, Jason and I. It is just the thought that I would not enjoy being gone from him.


I have enjoyed my time at home. I enjoy taking care the boys all day long. It is nice to have dinner on the table when Jason gets home from work. The house is clean and the laundry is done daily. It is amazing how great it feels to be able to keep up with things. Only thing is that this scares me because when I returned to work what will it be like. I am in need of a schedule that will help me stay organized upon my return to work. I am going to try hard to meal plan and stick to it. The boys will have bathes at night and I will shower in the morning. I still have lots of details to work out but those are a couple thoughts for now.

I have several post in the works but I am unsure when I will finish them. I was sad to see that two of the blogs I read will not be posting as often. Sometimes I feel as though I am a circle of mothers that support me in blog world.

This February will be 3 years since my nephew passed away. I have spent a lot of time mad, sad, confused and just unsure. I have questioned GOD a lot through this process. I wanted to know WHY? and that is an answer that I am not sure I will ever get. I often find myself thinking what his personality would be like or what he might look like. I have felt guilt for many reasons. I have never quit found the words to say to my brother for his lose.

After he passed away I would check on Logan several times a night. I couldn't shake the thought of something happening to my child. I just couldn't imagine life without him. It took a year before I would sleep through the night again. I found myself being very protective of him. I wanted to believe that if I never let him leave my side I could protect him. So when someone calls me over protective I want to say you try losing your 3 month old nephew. I know you are thinking harsh but there really isn't any other way to explain it.

I again find myself waking up several times a night to make sure Lucas is breathing. I am not sure that I will be able to shake this feeling. I have been praying about things lately and I hope that I can find peace with this.

Where has my sweet little well behaved boy gone. Ever since we brought Lucas home from the hospital Logan has become a different child. He talks back, hits, spits, cries and wants held all the time. Not that all that happens in one day but it makes for a long week. I would like to think that we had a handle on his behavior before Lucas was born but now I just don't know what to do. It has only been 4 weeks but it has been a very stressful 4 weeks. I feel like Logan has forgot how to communicate his feeling. I have sat and cried to my husband because I am unsure what to do. I have been using timeouts but it doesn't seem to be working. When he gets up the behavior is all over again. This week he has started to lash out at the baby. At what point is it no longer just an adjustment stage. I have been reading online, watching suppernanny and I am open to any suggestions........