My So Called Life

Sometimes I have so much to say but can't get the words out. I sit here with so many thoughts in my head but not sure what to write. Have you ever felt like the walls are closing in on you but yet it is OK. It is almost the weekend and I have survived this week. That is about all I can say at this point.

Goodnight!

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... enough money within her control to move outand rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE…a youth she's content to leave behind.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... one friend who always makes her laugh.. and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE…a feeling of control over her destiny..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... how to fall in love without losing herself…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... how to quit a job, break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.... how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW… whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table.. or a charming Inn in the woods.... when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW… What she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

Do you ever find yourself cooking the same meals over and over again for your family? I have been reading several blogs where people make weekly meal calendar's. I just can't seem to find the time to do this yet. I would rather have a pantry full of food and a freeze full of meat to cook whatever I want. Unfortunately with the economy the way it is a $300.00 trip to Wal-mart is not in our budget. Wasting food is something I try to avoid these days. I try to cook just enough and have a little left over for my lunch the next day. Today I cleaned out my pantry and made a shopping list for this week. On this list you will find the staples that I keep in my household. I tried to make a weekly meal list. I tried hard but instead it made me hungry. Maybe this will take getting use to but it is a start. I have been trimming off a little each week from our grocery budget. I try hard not to make more then one trip a week to the store. I shop at Aldi's for everything that I can and then the dreaded trip to wal-mart next. Every week I look at the ads online to see what deals I can find. Yes I will go to three different stores to save money because they are all with 5 miles of each other. I think I might be more frugal then my family was growing up.



So tell me your deepest darkest money saving secrets!

Have you ever thought about what you wanted to be when you grow up? Sometimes I wonder if I still can think this about myself. Yes I have a job but is it the job I want. I went to college got my degree in the profession I thought I wanted to work in. Don't get me wrong I have a great job with wonderful benefits and a great boss. I find myself changing my goals in life, my wants, my desires and much more. What I wanted at 18 is not what I want today. I often wonder what it would be like to stay at home with my children. Maybe I want to be a elementary teacher or a nurse. I find myself being more curious then ever and that makes me think about life alot. I look at people around me and think is this what they wanted out of life. Don't get me wrong I know that one can not always have what they want. Sometimes I question my happiness with myself. I think I am my hardest critic when it comes to my self worth. Maybe this is steamed from my childhood or maybe I have low self esteem.



I am happy with the way my life has turned out. I married a man that loves me for who I am. He is a wonderful father and provider. I was blessed with a son. Being a mother is the most rewarding job of all. This is why I question staying at home. Maybe I was meant to be a stay at home mom but I didn't play my cards right. How do you know when the time is right? How do you sacrifice this for your family to be selfish. Lets face it with this day and age staying home is not easy. A household almost needs 2 incomes to exist. I guess I just want to know that there isn't something else out there that I was destined to do. I love my job as a administrative assistant. I find it rewarding and I am good at it. Just don't know if it is what I want to do for the next 25 years. I have to trust in GOD that he will lead my family in the right direction.

Life doesn't stop for one to get well! I have found this out over the last couple months. I have been struggling with health issues along with others over the last couple of months. It all started about the first of November and has spiraled out of control since then. I have bounced between family doctor, ENT specialist, out patient surgery and then back to the dentist. I find it hard to believe that I have had over 12 appointments in the last 2 months. Until now I have been blessed with great health. Only going to the doctor for my yearly check up or the common cold. It is my hopes that this last appointment has fixed the problems. I had labs ran last week and still show an infection. My hope is that with the proper medication I can over come this and get back to normal.

Well I should probably be off to bed and get some much needed rest! I will update you more later......