My So Called Life

I have been struggling with my feeling about Logan no longer being the only child. I know that sounds so bad but that is how I feel. I feel guilty that he won't have mommy and daddy to himself. That he will have to share his room and toys. That he might not adjust well to the changes. I know that I am not an only child and I survived. I have cried two times this week about it. My friends keep telling me that he will be fine and that he will adjust. I don't think that is the issue for me. I think the issue is that I just feel guilt. It isn't like he got to make this decision or have a say. Jason and I considered his feelings but I guess I didn't realize how much he would impacted before the baby. I have already seen a change in my little boy and to tell the the truth that bothers me. This might just be something I have to deal with on my own time. Maybe some of it the fact that he is my baby in my mind. Yes I know that he is 3 1/2 but I still think of him as my baby. I still hold him when he crys or gets hurt. I still baby him some days for no reason other than I want to. My husband tells me I need to let him grow up before the baby is born. So today I am emotionally struggling with the thought of being a family of 4 by the 10Th.