My So Called Life

Have you ever stopped to think about the friendships that you have or have had over time. I think over the years I have had to really think long and hard about some of the friendships I have been in. Like it or not when you have children there are some friendships that just don't survivor. I have lost several close friendship do to difference in lifestyles. I think that until you have been a parent one doesn't realize the changes that take place after a baby. There is not always time for going out to dinner with friends or going out to have drinks. People's priorities change whether they like it or not. The things that use to be important might not be as important anymore. I find that it is hard for people that don't have children to understand why getting a sitter is not an option all the time. I believe that spending time with my family is more important than a night out. I am not saying that we all don't need a break every now and than but most of the time I would rather bring my kids with me. This year I have been faced with several decision about relationships that were a one way street. I am not the same person I was 10 years ago nor will I be the same person 20 years from now. I am still growing as a person and I enjoy experiencing each year and learning more about the adult me. I think that people change with age but like I said this is just my opinion. I think that friends chose to grow together or grow apart. A true friend will be there during your darkest moments but they will also be the one that is holding you hand while you deliver your baby.

I saw a comment on someones blog about if you could time travel your 14 year old self into the present to read what you just wrote as an introduction to yourself, would you believe it is you?would the 14 year old girl say about the way things turned out. It got me to thinking about what I thought life might be like when I was 14.

I also can tell you that I never thought I would make friends through blogging or reconnect with people from HS. I honestly can tell you that it is nice to read what other mothers like me are going through. It makes me feel normal some days when I feel like I am all alone or out of control. I probably shouldn't call it this but it is like my little support group or cheering section. You all have always been honest and truthful. I feel like I have so much to share but can't find the words. I hope that blogging will come easier to me soon. I am still getting use to sharing my thoughts and feelings. I have thought about making my blog private but I also like that other can find support or encouraging words through my blog like I have done with others.