Life as Four
Life as a family of Four has taken some adjusting but it has all been worth it. Before Lucas was born I feared having enough love, time or patience for two children. I have had many people tell me that you will be fine but the unknown is always scary. I worried about myself, Logan and Jason adjusting. I worried about how I would parent two children. I feared the delivery because Logan's delivery was a horrible experience for me. All of the unknowns kept me awake some nights to tell you the truth. Preparing for the second child is a different experience then the first in my opinion. I would like to think I am more practical this time around. I think that after having the first baby you realize what is a necessity and what is a want.
The first couple of weeks home was really rough. Logan struggled sharing time with mommy and daddy. He did not understand why Lucas could not play. Jason and I tried to involve Logan in feedings and changing the baby. We wanted him to feel like a big brother. I have to admit there were times that I would sit and cry because Logan just didn't understand. Breastfeeding Lucas brought an entire different challenge to balancing my time with the boys. I feel like Logan did not get the attention he needed from me until at least 4 weeks after Lucas was born.
Leaving the house with the boys is very challenging. I feel like by the time I get everyone dressed, feed and changed I am exhausted. I takes me at least 30-45 mintues to prepare for an outgoing with them. It is amazing how easy it was to pick up and go before. I was spoiled with no diaper bag and car seat to tote around. I was down to a change of clothes, snacks and drink. I will say it has been a huge change for me.
Jason and I have not had much time together lately. I feel like we see each other in passing. We are in much need of a date night but I am not sure I am ready to leave Lucas yet. He has taken a bottle several times from Logan, Jason and I. It is just the thought that I would not enjoy being gone from him.
I have enjoyed my time at home. I enjoy taking care the boys all day long. It is nice to have dinner on the table when Jason gets home from work. The house is clean and the laundry is done daily. It is amazing how great it feels to be able to keep up with things. Only thing is that this scares me because when I returned to work what will it be like. I am in need of a schedule that will help me stay organized upon my return to work. I am going to try hard to meal plan and stick to it. The boys will have bathes at night and I will shower in the morning. I still have lots of details to work out but those are a couple thoughts for now.
I have several post in the works but I am unsure when I will finish them. I was sad to see that two of the blogs I read will not be posting as often. Sometimes I feel as though I am a circle of mothers that support me in blog world.
The first couple of weeks home was really rough. Logan struggled sharing time with mommy and daddy. He did not understand why Lucas could not play. Jason and I tried to involve Logan in feedings and changing the baby. We wanted him to feel like a big brother. I have to admit there were times that I would sit and cry because Logan just didn't understand. Breastfeeding Lucas brought an entire different challenge to balancing my time with the boys. I feel like Logan did not get the attention he needed from me until at least 4 weeks after Lucas was born.
Leaving the house with the boys is very challenging. I feel like by the time I get everyone dressed, feed and changed I am exhausted. I takes me at least 30-45 mintues to prepare for an outgoing with them. It is amazing how easy it was to pick up and go before. I was spoiled with no diaper bag and car seat to tote around. I was down to a change of clothes, snacks and drink. I will say it has been a huge change for me.
Jason and I have not had much time together lately. I feel like we see each other in passing. We are in much need of a date night but I am not sure I am ready to leave Lucas yet. He has taken a bottle several times from Logan, Jason and I. It is just the thought that I would not enjoy being gone from him.
I have enjoyed my time at home. I enjoy taking care the boys all day long. It is nice to have dinner on the table when Jason gets home from work. The house is clean and the laundry is done daily. It is amazing how great it feels to be able to keep up with things. Only thing is that this scares me because when I returned to work what will it be like. I am in need of a schedule that will help me stay organized upon my return to work. I am going to try hard to meal plan and stick to it. The boys will have bathes at night and I will shower in the morning. I still have lots of details to work out but those are a couple thoughts for now.
I have several post in the works but I am unsure when I will finish them. I was sad to see that two of the blogs I read will not be posting as often. Sometimes I feel as though I am a circle of mothers that support me in blog world.
Posts
Hang in there! You will work out the perfect routine for your family when you return to work. Just remember that the house work will always be there and if your boys need the extra attention - give it to them ;)
I am glad life is becoming manageable again!
I remember those days and I am so glad you seem to be on the other side of it all.
I agree with Nel - you will eventually get a perfect routine in place.
Just remember it is trial and error - just keep changing and adapting until you get the perfect fit for your family. I always go in with such high expectations for our "routines" and "schedules" then sleep times change or feeding times or bed times or my husbands routine.... so they are ever changing, which I think is hard!
I am so proud of you and Logan, sounds like Lucas is really lucky !!!!!!